I'm Out

9dp3dt and it's a BFN with cramps, backache and full flow period. 

I am gutted.

This isn't "it"

Here we are, 6am on 7dp3dt, BFN.  Yes, I know this is still REALLY early.  I also know that I have an overwhelming feeling that I am not pregnant. I feel it in my gut. The first few days after transfer I felt all sorts of fluttering and bubbling in my belly. I had intense back pain that radiated into my hip joints. I felt something. Since Wed that has all disappeared. All I have now is a faint breast tenderness a lot like what I experience in the days leading up to my period, before the intense endo-fueled cramps start.

I took a tumble at work on Wed. I twisted my ankle and fell to my knees with a jolt. I keep thinking that maybe that's what happened? I mean, my instructions were to not lift anything heavier than a gallon of  milk so I am guessing that a fall to the ground from 6 feet is probably also not great for an embryo trying to implant.

Ugh! This sucks. I know I'm not out till either AF shows up, or I get a negative BETA but I am running seriously low on hope.  

Winter is Coming

Stark white. Snow white. Nothing.

It's WAY too early. Today is 5dp3dt!! I am crazy to be testing this early. 

At least now we know that yesterday's test was for sure an evap. 

Going to try not to test again till Saturday morning. TRY.

Let the Insanity Commence...

This morning on a whim I took a CVS Early Pregnancy Test. There was SOMETHING... Mr R, who is color blind and has trouble with blues and greens saw nothing. I made the pic b&w and a skinny line was visible even to him. I am sure it was an evap - though the line I saw was in 1min... Now there is a clear blue SKINNY line... I feel it was an evap. But of course now the mania has set it and I need to pee on anything that isn't nailed down!! *Sigh*

Tomorrow morning I have a date with an FRER... Or two... It is still WAY too early to test, but my TWW brain doesn't give a hoot. I am testing and that's that.

Wish me luck please!

8A

Our lion was 8A this morning and was returned to a uterus with "excellent lining" according to the RE who did the transfer. "There's no reason for this not to work under these conditions," she said.

We could not get assisted hatching because this is a medical trial. We also cannot take any additional folate , B complex or baby aspirin - necessary for my MTHFR - as the trial forbids this. Only once a heartbeat is confirmed can we start additional therapies.

And now we wait...