Nurse: "Oh yeah, the trial has started."
Mr. R (with me listening in): "Ummm... so... ummmm..." *Looks at me expecting a full-scale meltdown of tears and drama.*
Nurse: When can y'all come in to sign consents?
Mr. R: "So we're still IN???" Then to me, "WE'RE STILL IN!!!!"
I started my period late Sunday night and called on Monday to schedule CD3 testing for the next day.
So here's what I know so far:
1) The trial is comparing a new antagonist with Gonal-F. I will either be part of the control group using Gonal-F, or part of the test group using the new product -- name escapes me, and I don't have paperwork with me at the office.
Some of you may balk at my lack of knowledge around this drug that I am allowing them to pump me full of... but those of you in a similar can't-pay-for-even-one-IVF-cycle-on-our-own boat will understand... "You want to inject me directly with urine from some post menopausal nuns but I get a cycle of IVF for free? Sure. Where do I sign?"
2) The trial required that I have more than 10, but fewer than 20 on my AFC. I passed this phase with flying colors. (Huzzah! My repro system did SOMETHING right for once!!) Mr. R was the only one conscious enough to pay attention to numbers... I was just so deliriously excited to be in there with the dildo-cam that I didn't hear a word out of the nurse's mouth. (Yes, I said deliriously excited and dildo-cam in same sentence.) Per Mr. R's memory my AFC was 8 on Rt and 9 on left so 17 total. Phew!
3) I also had a blood draw and we're waiting on the results of that to see if I squeak in and can participate. They need my FSH to be no higher than
4) I also have to have an updated HSG and I am ashamed to admit that while my lady parts have been incessantly poked and prodded over the last year, I am overdue for a pap, so that needs to happen as well.
Now for the good news... I am actually as we speak taking the first of the drugs I will be required to take to start this cycle. Okay, so it's only birth control... but it's seriously the furthest I have been so far in this journey and I was so excited to take that little pill this morning I could have cried. I feel like I am actively doing SOMETHING!!!
Of course on Friday my results could come back with an FSH reading of 20 and I could be out of the trial in one swift second... but for today I am enjoying this TEENY TINY thing. It's a step forward and I have GOT to celebrate this.