Went in for our last blood draw this morning.
LH: (not posted yet)
P4: (not posted yet)
So it's confirmed... tonight we trigger. I talked a little yesterday about how this delay has me feeling. Mostly I am scared that we may have lost our big follie (round here we're now referring to the follies in size order by letters of the alphabet A through E. "Number 21" sounds so impersonal, so 21mm = A, or Allen, or Alice or any name beginning with A, 17mm = B, or Bob or Betty, etc). I WISH I knew how they were looking today, but I think it's probably best that I don't know.
The last few days I've spent a lot of time talking to them, and singing to them, and eating really well to make them strong - loads of protein shakes, willing them to grow and willing A to quit growing. This part freaks me out because after Thur there is nothing more I can do. After Thur it's all on them. They will mature or not mature. They will fertilize or not fertilize. They will divide and grow or not. And if any make it to transfer, they will either implant or not implant. From here on out it's all up to them and it scares the hell out of me!! I am really praying for some miraculous great news and a shock of 4 strong embryos on morning of transfer, but I will be satisfied with 2. I just want to do better than last cycle.
Was advised by the nurse that we're not the only couple in surgery this time. There will be one other couple who are ALSO doing TESE and retrieval. I never see anyone on the blogs talking about TESE, so I guess it will be nice to see another couple who are dealing with the same thing. Of course she's probably going to be ridiculously normally fertile and like 22 years old with a bumper crop of 20 eggs.... Hey, at least Mr. R all hopped up on Valium might try and behave himself instead of running around flashing his naked butt at the nurses like last time. Seriously... can't take him anywhere!